好奇怪，为什么要忘记一个不该记得的东西会比记住一个不该忘记的东西难一千倍？:(

因为害怕失去，所以不敢想太多。
好吧，这样就够了。

Blue day.

after the lesson,i finally can't take it anymore and started to cry so hard,so loud in the studio...
my gosh.i've never felt this depressed in my life before,NEVER.
thank you for being so NOT undertstanding to show how terrible i am.
i will work harder...not for you,but for myself.

Please.

assignments have been driving me super crazy lately...

spent many late nights to complete two essays which i don't know what is the point of doing it at all and finally just one more composition left. 

YET.i have to remind myself that there will be audition,lec&sem tutorial and quiz next week!!!!
my gooooooodness!!
i just want to enjoy the music, as simple as that. :(((

=(

我好累。

感动。

终于找到了那个一直到昨天为止都还找不到的声音。
今天，它忽然就出现了。

虽然维持不久，可是已经够了。
出错的那一刻，我一直在想，为了它，不管怎样都要坚持下去，一定要做个完美的结束。
虽然整个过程只有短短的几分钟，却让我花了几万几亿分钟才找到它。
那种感觉，简直比拿到钱还要开心一百倍，好刺激。

不知道它会不会再出现，可是很开心遇见了你，声音。^_^

九个字。

不期待，就不会难过了。

常常这样对别人说，自己却总是口是心非。

好想变成一颗什么事都不在乎的石头。D;

Hello,Sem 5.

timetable is out! 
omggg schedules are so freeeeeee compared to previous semesters. no more impro,keyboard harmony and solfege class. its AWESOME. i only go to school three days a week. 8D
finally, i have more time to practice and do my own things...jia you sozihan~!!

i'm excited yet nervous. :v

谢谢.

终于明白，努力是永远不会白费的。
过程中，不管有多少疑问，不解，难过，都值得。

我会继续寻找那个答案。最开心的是，今天我又向它靠近了一步。8)))

Stuck.

why does this thing keep happening to me again and again?
i hate this feeling so much...the thing i hate the most is every time when i try so hard to get help, it ends up with dissapointment but no one tell me why.

i need an answer.